Sanity

I'm going insane. Really.

Insane.

Why? I don't know.

Perhaps it is the loads of endless homework that just seems to keep piling up. Perhaps it's my calling in the Relief Society presidency that keeps me busy. Perhaps it's the fact that no matter how many dates I go on, I can never seem completely satisfied, thus shooting down each and every opportunity for a relationship I've ever had. Perhaps it is because my grad school application the U of U is still being looked at and I won't hear back from them until the end of March. Perhaps it is because I still haven't heard back from EFY (not that anyone else has either). Perhaps it's because I'm moving home this summer at age 22. Perhaps it's just the fact that I'm 22.

Perhaps there is no reason behind my insanity.

But it all stops now.

Starting today, I'll no longer be crazy. I'll plan out my evenings better so I have the time to finish my homework instead of cramming it in sneakily at work. I'll be even more involved as a counselor in the Relief Society to better get to know the girls and serve them. I'll give guys a fair chance-that's all they need. I'll be more patient with the U and EFY; they have plenty of applications to go through and who am I to tell them how to do their job? I'll move home this summer and hang out with me mom-we can keep each other company. I'll be okay with being 22, graduating from BYU, and not married. In fact, I'll be happy about it.

If there's one thing I've learned from life, it's all about the attitude. I can choose to accept my circumstances and better them, or I can choose to complain and not do anything about them. If I approach life with an optimistic attitide, no matter what situation I find myself in, I will be happy.

So today, I choose happiness. And I'll keep choosing happiness until my dying day.